Being wrecked tired is an interesting state of affairs. Especially if you're not sleepy, and for some reason chronically unable to sleep in. Being tired does go hand in hand with "being" emotional, ie feeling things in a more intense way than usual. The people who let you skip ahead of them in the queue in Lidl seem to you like saints, you suddenly want to hug them, and cry for joy that the world is not full of assholes. The little child who has wandered off from his parents in Lidl, but is too small even to set off the automatic doors by himself makes you want to cry at his fragility - his hopeless arms up at the doors, pleading for freedom. The gushy song on the radio makes you glad to be alive, and fills you with excitement and happiness for little apparent reason.
Why is it that Tiredness leads us to this state? This boneless - easily moved - nervous wreck of influencibility? We normally have a shield around us, protecting us from all these feelings, the little events outlined above bounce off us, slip down our shells onto the footpath, and melt into the ground. The shield takes energy to run, because it is only when our energy is low that it fails us - allowing feelings in - letting them settle on us. Therefore we could save alot of energy by getting rid of the shield altogether, could we? If we allowed ourselves to really feel everything for a while, without the protection of the little coccoon, would we get more done?
Doubtful- but whatever the case, I think it is to be advised to get tired and emotional once in a while - if only because you experience more of what makes you human.
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